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{June 25, 2015}   Struggles.

I have a couple of posts on the sidelines presently.

What is currently sitting on the clouds to bring down to write a coherent sentence or ten is making it difficult.

The emotions that I am dealing with are all over the place – and focusing is becoming a struggle.

This past week, we found someone to share our Life with. I am so happy and giddy like a school girl in the boy’s shower room (just one of those fantasies I have had and perhaps acted on – I won’t distract from the rest of the post 😉 )

I am one happy girl let me tell you. I am attracted to this woman on so many levels, that I am sitting here wondering if this is really happening. Even if it is not – I don’t want this dream to end.

She understands us, understands our sense of humour, and we can be just us. There is no pretending at all. It is how I feel when I am with Sir. I want to show Her everything I can about what makes us tick and share it.

The trip to the States, just the two of us, was a good time for insight I believe for both of us. I loved the company, Her smile, the twinkle in Her eyes when we were shopping or when She was showing me stuff. I think we both needed that time together. It was very hard throughout that trip to keep my hands to myself though. That car ride for me, confirmed that I would have no problem deferring to Her. For once I was being the puppy following happily behind. And I was alright with that.

I regret only one thing – and I rarely regret things in my Life. I did not kiss Her the night She agreed to be with us. I wanted to be sure of everything – and be there more for Sir. This is His first foray in kissing another girl in front of His girl. I am grateful Sir went in to get one, and He has much more control than I…I tend to be a greedy little girl and would want more. The parking lot was not a great place to have more.  It was going to be a long ride home as it is – I didn’t want to be distracted with Her lips on mine going through my head on that trip back.

Watching the two of Them kiss was a real turn on for me. I love people’s mouths – it is one of the body parts that catch my eye first. I tingled at the sight; my pussy twitches still thinking back at that moment. I was grinning ear to ear and still am nearly a week later.

This weekend should be interesting. I am struggling with a couple of things especially with knowing the role I play with Her. I know mine with Sir very well – and He has made it a point to re-assure me as such. I never doubted it – however grateful He wants to be sure that I am okay with everything. It isn’t me that I am worried about – it is the adjustment/His brain dealing with this new adventure.

She has already given me a two tasks (if She is aware of it or not). And both are being worked on from the time they were given. I enjoy doing things for Her, as She loves doing things for others. Another service sub in our household should be interesting especially for Sir.

The struggle now: I call Him Sir, I struggle calling Her by Her name at times – I don’t know how to deal with this – I am at lost till the weekend approaches. Perhaps then I will feel more comfortable once that is figured out… knowing our places within the triad. I will be able to breathe a little calmer.

My brain has plenty more clouds rolling about – a bit of a storm going on in there, hoping it rains gently for me to finish writing later this week.

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