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{April 26, 2017}   Not my Circus, Not my Monkeys

Being the good Polish girl that i was brought up to be, this idiom rings true in my Life. Basically – If it’s not your monkey, and it’s not even from your circus, then it’s not your problem.

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i won’t interfere or bother myself with trouble in a place i don’t belong to or have no authority — it’s someone else’s job to deal with this.

The problem i have is when another person assumes you took a side when you only acknowledged someone’s frustration concerning something. And we do this with all friends and acquaintances that we are connected with on some level.

The other problem i have is when said person decided to email in a hostile manner without giving much thought into how it would be received. There was no context to what or who it was pertaining to. It does not make it any better when they write using the fact Community Leaders need to be careful who they “support”.  Being somewhat threatening to where our “loyalties” seem to lie, in my opinion, is a very low place to go. This person did not have the right to do that and was very disrespectful. It would be like me going to her Sir and lecturing him on who he should or should not associate with.

The next reply after Sir wrote her was to apologize that the email might be taken hostile.  It then became an email under the guise of being helpful, however, at that point, the damage was already done.

i would think that being mindful of the written word especially in this circumstance would have been prudent. If i ever did that to anyone and Sir found out – my arse would be more than black and blue (and not in a fun way).

i am the one that had to deal with Sir after this interaction. It was not pretty at all. He kept thinking He did something wrong and went back to see if He wrote something that could be thought of taking a side. There was not. We as a couple, ensure that is the case especially when drama may pop up. We are just as confused as everyone else once it started to explode in front of us. All we had were questions and it definitely wasn’t the time to ask them.

Perception can be a bitch – I agree. In this case, the person was making an assumption on something without even asking where we might have stood on said topic. And sadly we had to guess what the person was referring to initially.

Apparently, it is fine that they are able to pick a side and declare it – yet it is not allowed to others even if you are a Leader in the community. Personally, i do not think they should have stepped in either. Let the people that are running the event, clean up their own shit. All this is doing is making the lines pretty clear where people stand.

As Sir has said before, we will be Switzerland. We do not know either parties side to the situation and likely never will.

We do not attend this event due to when it is scheduled – usually a work weekend for Sir.

It is unfortunate that this has become a Shit-Show for all of the Fetlife participants and for the Community at Large in the City to witness. We did not consent to this mess being splayed across our screens (actually “gagged” individuals on my feed because of this) and i do not think people should drag others into it – even if it is only an assumption.

This is also unfortunate to what is going and is happening to the BDSM/Kink community.

I do hope it improves or at least all Egos are put on the side for the sake of the community without splitting it even further than it is.



{April 24, 2017}   It taunts me…

the Write button… posted in the corner of the screen. It has a small (8) beside it. That is 8 drafts sitting in waiting.

There are several more drafts waiting in my head to be started and not finished. Last week i have already deleted 4 from the list…

i get all gong ho to write, sit down to start or finish one… and then the brain gives me a gentle fuck you. It seems to be enough to procrastinate even more. It doesn’t matter what else i choose to call it – it is just that.

Then the procrastination becomes a wall. A huge red brick wall.

There i am struggling to get through it, however, the mortar on the brick is keeping it up and strong.

Instead, i will try to go over it or maybe even around it.

In a sense, i am writing now, though it is nothing of substance. Perhaps i will try again later 🙂 – the journey to get this far has been tiring.

 

dot.

 

 



{April 5, 2017}   Theme of my Work Life

You can’t know what you don’t know. 

You can’t know about things you have yet been privy too.

Working evenings suck – information wise. We are left in the dark and hope for some light. We are the forgotten People.

People, i find, do not like to share information that will allow you to do your job especially if they are a peer. The idea that you might feel irrelevant if you share information needs to stop.

Every day there is something that i have not been tagged on in an email or was not at a meeting (due to the hours of my shift) which a little information would have came in handy a little later in the evening.

A brief overview or a tag on an email is all i ask. i am sure i can figure it out from there. i am pretty good at that if i have a hint to work with.

The most i can do when i come in is to ask “is there anything i need to know?” “What happened today” or “I checked my email from home, though it seemed quiet, should i know anything for tonight”.

If those don’t spark conversation – i am not any more knowledgeable than when i came on shift.

Talk to my manager and tell him it would be great to know these things… He agrees and suggest asking… LoL – which i laugh to – and Ask “WHAT AM I ASKING ABOUT IF I DO NOT KNOW ABOUT IN THE FIRST PLACE”.

I remind him every time – I can’t know what i don’t know. He seemed to get the hint – now to get a couple of others on board. i really don’t mind leaving them extra work because i wasn’t told about it…not at this point anyway.

So, back to my paperwork that is piling up. As it took me an hour to figure something out via 4 different people, and a forwarded email from one of them who noticed i wasn’t on it. The kicker – i am the OP Lead for it… i really hate looking stupid on something that could have easily been remedied by one email. This was not a good night to waste an hour.

Nights.

dot.

 

 

 



{April 1, 2017}   Good head space today.

And i am running with it.

It doesn’t feel like a manic.

i just have the energy to get things done – little bursts here and there.

i did need the weekend off from events and people in general.

Sir is working, allowing me to have a mini-me day which really is just housekeeping, ensuring the cats don’t destroy anything, social media – answering email/messages and not be interrupted.

So far the list has been:

water the cats.
empty the dishwasher.
fill the dishwasher
fix/wash blankets on the sofas.
put laundry in: wash/dry
put chicken in the oven for supper
clean the fridge out
garbage to the bin
find a household inventory supply list to manipulate
found a grocery inventory excel sheet 😀

That last one was gold for me – it even has a want/have/need column calculations. Saved me from doing it myself.

The household one i had to move to excel and luckily that didn’t take long.

Anyway – something is dinging in the kitchen, i better figure out what it is and deal with it.

Talk to you all laters.

dot.



The only thing i detest of playing hard is the coming down part. Body parts hurting, yet feel good if pressed in the right place, the head starting to wrap up into full speed again, and the general blue feeling that it is all over.

It was a good Subwoofer night, with some good family (from both Houses), friends and good beats at the House afterwards. The masochists of the house were well used. Sir and i play during the week, however, not at a higher intensity as we do like this. It is quite a treat when it does happen.

The poor floor though got a touch soaked, that happens when Sir commands me to cum. It doesn’t help when Sir BK is egging me on – with her hands in my hair to hold me in place while i am being beaten. Then again, i can’t say that i was complaining LoL.

This time Sir had another to help, the lovely MirandaJane…with Sir insisting she could indeed hit me harder than she was. And yes, Sir was correct about that LoL.

It was good to be able to sit with her a little later and just talk with her. Sir is right, she is a smart one, and does ask good questions. You could see MJ processing what she was watching and taking in as much as she could.

The time spent afterwards with Sir, curled up at His feet, head on His lap felt so good. Sir encouraging elle to come and snuggle with us after her beats (as her Sir was helping with another beat). We just held on to each other, enjoying the show in front of us (or what i can recall), the warmth of our bodies and the happy floating time. My favourite thing is when Sir rubs/scratches my head or behind my ears, i was in my happy place.

The bruises (including the ones from this past week)  have allowed me to think about the weekend with a huge smile. There was so much going on that i am sure i missed something.

Basically, what I am trying to say –  All in all, it was a very good evening and i think it was needed by many of us. The connection sometimes gets lost with distance, Life and Love. We felt more like a Family again and i am reminded how blessed we are to have so many good people in our Life… including the ones that we spent time at Subwoofer with.

 



{March 8, 2017}   After-mess of a Blizzard.

i am in the office and cleaning up the mess that happens when your city broke their own record for the longest blizzard.

This world that i am in involves SAP (lovely program /sarcasm), lots of paperwork due to everything being already invoiced and posted to finance and re-issuing of paperwork along with revisions of trailers, carriers and product.

A few facts of the Blizzard:

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The highways are slowly opening up in areas. One section opened at 10:30 am, another at 4:24 pm (just as i got into the office), and a few others around us the last 2 or 3 hours.

This means that trucks are starting to roll into the Plant, and grumbling because they want their trailers already done. We are still working on 2 trailers from Monday currently, while production doesn’t really care we are behind. It means we are trying to get today, yesterday’s and Monday’s orders done…to boot – this is Cali night. That is a mess on its own without adding the rest of this.

With all that, i still have to deal with the International orders (China and Japan), removing CHEP pallets (due to removing the product from trucks) from spreadsheets prior to uploading them so customers are not charged in error and dispatch for tomorrow hasn’t even been looked at. It might be a longer night than i wish for.

Sir needed to get to work and had to push the car in order for us to move forward… and pushed me out last night, along with another neighbour as he was walking towards finding me.

He is a sore man today – thankfully someone (who i believe was the Park Front Loader) came and cleared our driveway. It was as high as Sir’s waist and we had to walk around to the neighbour’s yard on the hard packed snow to get out. i do hope He takes a soak in the tub – He really deserves it.

The house is a little overwhelming too, as we have been trying to keep on top of the weather and work. We have MAsT on Saturday to get ready for…i need to ensure we have proper winter gear for the trip. The house chores will have to wait till Sunday unless i can sneak in a couple of things before then.

Sir just got home – and about to call….

Talk to you all later 🙂

Dot.

 



{March 7, 2017}   Blizzard… still in effect.

As you can see from this lovely little map – everything that is red – is closed. i am sitting at work “preparing” for tomorrow and then attempt the slow drive home. It took just over an hour last night – when it is normally an 11-minute drive.

Sir is not happy that i am here – and really i am not either. i got the email after the fact that i could stay home. i said fuck it – do what i can to help – and then get back to the house.

Talk to you all later and perhaps it will be a touch warmer though this is supposed to go on for another day.

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Yep – that time again – Mother Nature is really drunk.

It is raining, snowing, with thunder, lightning, and it is windy.

i am sitting at work – it is my first day back from my vacation – to play cleanup and keep everyone abreast of the highway conditions and how it will affect us.

Right now – our little city is being surrounded by road closures.

This is our “Blizzard Warning” even though we are currently in the middle of it:

A powerful winter storm has brought blizzard conditions to extreme western Manitoba as of mid-afternoon, and blizzard conditions are expected to move eastward into the remainder of western Manitoba this evening. Heavy freezing rain showers or even thunderstorms occurred in southwestern Manitoba this afternoon, and this remains a possibility in some areas early this evening.

This wide variety of weather is courtesy of an intense low pressure system currently located in North Dakota moving northwards towards southern Manitoba. This storm is bringing northwest winds of 50-70 km/h with gusts as high as 90 km/h along with heavy snow resulting in blizzard conditions to areas near the Saskatchewan border as of mid-afternoon, and these blizzard conditions will spread eastward this evening. The blizzard is expected to continue throughout the day Tuesday before tapering off Tuesday evening.

Snowfall total will be significant with this system, ranging from 10 cm near the international border, 20-30 cm in the Parklands and evening higher amounts in northern Manitoba where up to 60 cm is forecast.

Winds will be a bit lighter in the Swan River – Grand Rapids area and a winter storm warning is in effect there. Significant snow is likely in both these communities with 20-35 cm accumulation by Tuesday evening.

At the moment it appears that Winnipeg, the Red River Valley and points east will escape the brunt of this storm, and no weather warnings are currently in effect. However, strong winds gusting to 80 km/h, snow and blowing snow are expected to develop overnight tonight and persist on Tuesday.

This is a major storm system. Highway closures and power outages are likely. The public is advised to postpone travel in western Manitoba, eastern Saskatchewan and northern Manitoba until the storm passes.

Meteorologists are closely monitoring the path of this system and will issued further warnings if necessary.

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Travel is expected to be extremely hazardous due to reduced visibility. Road closures are possible.

Quiet night here at work it will be. There will be a documentary or three playing in the background and i will have time to audit and upload CHEP pallets for the last 2 weeks. This will also have me cleaning up the China annex backlog that seemed to happen once i went on vacation (2 days in).

i made sure that Sir had candles, food, and water before i left for work. He made sure His tablet and phone had been charged up in case there was a power failure. We have been lucky as we know some smaller towns surrounding us (and country folks) have lost theirs or it has been flickering.

Anyway it is time to get to work and get things done here.

Stay warm A/all. 😀

Dot.



{March 5, 2017}   ALL I WANT IS A NICE BUM.

So, i decided to use my stubbornness for “good” or that is how i am telling my brain to work with it LoL.

Someone i read regularly posted on her blog the other day a 30 day squat challenge. Here i am thinking, “hmmm, i haven’t been doing squats regularly in the last 4 months… sure WHY THE HELL NOT”.

ALL I WANT IS A NICE BUM.

OMFG – this is Day 3 and i swear i am dying LoL. If you think getting kicked in the cunt over and over or get a good back/ass beating hurts, let me tell you that “Motherfucker” and “Oh, SHIT”, have nothing on this. Even “Mr Rod” seems pleasant at this moment.

Yesterday, i was great till after lunch, when it hit me…oddly enough it seems to happen when you need to go to the bathroom. That realization of “what the fuck was i thinking” hitting you square in the face – or in this case my quads. And then the how the fuck am i getting back up came to mind – apparently a little more difficult than initially anticipated LoL. We will say it hit me hard.

i finally got up and continued with my day a tad slower than usual or gingerly might be the word to use.

Just keep reminding myself: ALL I WANT IS A NICE BUM

Sir was done work at 6 pm and i wandered down to the Shop to pick Him up. i walked through the door and said hi Sir – with Him looking at me weirdly. He commented on how i was walking funny. This is when i told Him about my brilliant plan the squat challenge. He chuckled for awhile of course…nearly any time – no – EVERY TIME i sat down and got up again.

Just keep reminding myself: ALL I WANT IS A NICE BUM.

When we were home, a touch later in the evening, i showed Sir the web link to the challenge. He was impressed, and then looked at Day 11 and on…there was a grin, a pause and that chuckle again. Apparently, i will be really feeling it a lot more later on and reminded me to stretch more. Thankfully, i have slowly gotten back into yoga/stretching however, i think i will do it before not after from now on.

Just keep reminding myself: ALL I WANT IS A NICE BUM

Later that night in bed as i was reading, i must have moved to get comfy and groaned or something. Sir looks up from his Tablet and asks me if i am alright.

i am, just sore Sir is all i say…as i keep reminding myself why i am doing this.

Then He asks if i would like Him to rub my upper legs with tiger balm.

i pause when He asks this – there are a few reasons:

1. He wears gloves… hehehe
2. Tiger balm is warm, then stings, then makes me feel cold
3. He really pushes the ointment into my muscles
4. Did i say He wears gloves?
5. It hurts so good yet so not LoL

MMMMmmm – in my own little world for a moment.

He tells me to quickly decide as it is getting late and He needs to sleep as He works in the morning.

So of course, why wouldn’t  i say “YES PLEASE SIR!”

And i keep reminding myself: ALL I WANT IS A NICE BUM

All i can say is that my muscles were screaming in pain and pleasure. It was so fucking wonderful to feel His gloved hands massaging in the ointment on my sore aching muscles. i get wet just thinking about it again. Silly girl that i am.

At one point, when Sir asked why, why would i do this – i told Him my motivation –  i wanted a nice bum. Again with that deep chuckle, He reassures me that it is indeed a nice bum and that He is quite fond of it. And that i WILL be taking a soak in the tub tomorrow.

Okay then, i just want it to be nicer bum then 🙂 … and … perhaps i am just “a little bit of a masochist”.



{March 4, 2017}   Vacation coming to a Close.

Monday is approaching fast and in a way, i want it to and i don’t. i actually enjoy working.

This week off though was needed and it allowed me to do a couple of things that i normally do not get lots of time for. i was able to cook/bake more than i usually do and the oddest thing, just to sit and read without worrying about other things around me.

i think i need to make that a thing – and take that time for myself. i keep meaning to yet there is always something else going on in my brain… then squirrel. Relaxing and me do not seem to happen often.

Right now i am frustrated because i am unable to find my stitch ripper. i wanted to finish mending a couple of pants and shirts. This is yet another thing i find relaxing.

Soon my son and his partner will be coming over. They are bringing the children, it will be good to see the baby as he is growing very quickly. He is at the age where he will be fascinated by the furbabies. Their daughter will keep the cats moving (LoL) to help with that.

We are wandering over to a Friend’s place to visit with them and another couple. i am hesitant because i do not know the couple. Sir knows one of them.  This meeting new people thing make me anxious as it is.

Looking at the time, i need to get cleaned up before my son arrives.

Laters,

Dot.



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